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Johnny, Angry Johnny, this is Jezebel in Hell
I wanna kill you, I wanna blow you...away
I can do it you gently
I can do it with an animal's grace
I can do it with precision
I can do it with gormet taste
Chorus:
But either way
Either (way), either way
I wanna kill you
I wanna blow you...
Away
I can do it to your mind
I can do it to your face
I can do it with integrity
I can do it with disgrace
Chorus
Johnny, Angry Johnny, this is Jezebel in Hell
Johnny, Angry Johnny, this is Jezebel in Hell
I can do it in a church
I can do it any time or place
I can do it like an angel
To quiet down your rage
Chorus
I can do it in the water
I can do on dry land
I can do it with instruments
I can do it with my own bare hands
But either way
Either way, you know where it stands
I wanna kill you
I wanna blow you...
Away
Johnny, Angry Johnny, this is Jezebel in Hell
Johnny, oh my Johnny
Where did your pleasure go
When the pain came through you
Where did your happiness go
This force is running you around now
Getting you down now
Where is your pleasure now Johnny
Where has your pleasure gone now
Johnny, Angry Johnny...
Every body really doesn't feel ok... Johnny.

What are you most looking forward to this weekend?

Out of this whole weekend, I'm most looking foward to tonight. Tonight my mom, My boyfriend, and two of our other friends are all going to see Ironman. I can't wait! I've heard it's an excelent movie, and beyond that, I happen to misse the boyface =[ Things are really stressful with everything that's going on in my life right now, with my mom being sick and me stressing about school and everything, plus his life is hectic too as he prepares to leave on his mission in September. Basically it's been really hard to have any relaxed hanging out time, and I figure this is one of those times when you are with friends and you can just hang out and be laid back and have fun. So really I can't wait. I'm excited. And from there we'll see. =]

The twilight carries with it

A dark scent

It encourages me

To go ahead

Drag my kisses

Out

and down

Long and passionate

I will let my lips

Linger on your lips

And your skin

I will move my hands

Like ice

Over your heated skin

Pale and warm

Like evening sun

I will listen to your breathing

As it responds to me

The scent encourages me

The scent tells me it will be ok

We are where

The stars are sleeping

And white lillies

Are silently weeping

We turn flowers black

As sin as dark as shadow

To match my gown

And secretly I think

Of how well it matches my heart

We are sleeping

In each other's arms

Where dreams sleep

And you protect me

The silence whispers

Cool in my ear

We are where we should be

And I am making you late

Late for work

Late for family

Late for dancing

Late for church

And yet

When I beg you not to go

You stay anyway

Knowing full well

You will fully be late

And I take oppertunity

Like a pill

I am addicted

To all things wonderful

And all things that make me wonder

But mostly I could go without

A fix or two

Gladly

Just to get a fix of you

My most favorite addiction

If I'm guilty of anything

It's just wanting more

More and more of what I like

And what I like

Is you

Your eyes cool like the ocean

Your skin warm like summer sun

Your touch like reassurance

Your kisses like joy

I've felt happieness before

But I don't think I ever knew joy

Or a love as complete as this

Before now

I grasp

I grasp you up

Inside my heart

My strong heart

My cold

Icewater heart

I gasp

I gasp your teeth

Into my skin

My pale

Moonlight skin

I pass

I pass through trials

Through trials

Large and small

So I can learn to be strong

I run

I run to you

You and your

Bright eyes

Strong arms

I grasp you inside my heart

I gasp you inside my skin

I pass through trials

I run to you

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I found this in a folder at school. I don't know how long I've had it, but it could be as old as the beginning of freshman year. No. Not without you. That means so much to me, especially since my boyfriend will be leaving in September of this year. The other day  I asked him what I would do without him and he said I would be a happy, good girl. I'd find things to do, and I'd be a good person. And I wish I had this then. I would have said No. Not without you. How can I be happy without him? And how can I be good without him? And how can I care what happens to me without him? How can I care about anything without him?

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Which brings me to this. I also found this one in the file at school. The point is, before I was with him, I really didn't care. About school, about church, about basically anything. Especially about myself. I still don't really care about myself, except for making myself better for him. I already know I will quit caring again. And I'm scared of where my self hate and apatathy will take me if I let them.

Basically I'm really scared of him leaving. I'm not sure I can do it. Don't get me wrong, I'm proud of him and it's the right thing, but It will be so hard. It will be the most painful thing, to say goodbye to him. He's been such a huge part of my life, and I don't remember what it was like before him...maybe just dark??

What was the last great epiphany you had?
Submitted by Ross.

The last great epiphany I had was this. No one ever thinks its as funny as you do. Especailly Police officers =[

Beautiful Boy's Beautiful Boy

      Quickly i have never Run, Smartly beyond
  any Boy, your Helper have their Dreamy:
  in your most Smart Apple are things which Understand me,
  or which i cannot Ponder because they are too Carefully

    your Fragile look Miticulusly will unPray me
  though i have Tell myself as School,
  you Recieve always Book by Book myself as Escape Ship
  (Mailing Strongly, Stifly) her Broken Computer

    or if your Earring be to Explain me, i and
  my House will Walk very Slowly, Dauntingly,
  as when the Butterfly of this Boy Dream
  the Star Rapidly everywhere Escapeing;

    nothing which we are to Talk in this Cloud Kiss
  the Rain of your Strong Coke: whose Heart
  Love me with the Lover of its Friend,
  Longing Teacher and City with each Waiting

    (i do not Jump what it is about you that Listen
  and Eat; only something in me Think
  the Beach of your Helper is Scary than all Escape)
  Dreamland, not even the Feild, has such Sad Bird

  - Anna & e.e'>http://www.languageisavirus.com/madlibs/ee.html">e.e. cummings      

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I love you

But this world

Why does it hate so much

So full of hate

Rage

Violence

Because someone is different

Means they are less

Sub human?

According to the rest

Who daily practice intolerance

Like some people practice religion

Fanatically and over zealous

Bashing heads

Beating boys and girls

Killing

Slamming into lockers

Such hateful words

Why can't everyone just learn

We're all human

Differences are what make us

Who we are

Not clones

Not drones

But ourselves

I wish people

Could be who they are

For all to see

Without the fear

Of the ignorant close minded

General populace

It hurts me to see

My friends hurting

Scared of what will happen

If their secrets get out

Since when is it a bad thing to love

Since they began loving people

Who looked just a bit more like them

But the way I see it

The world could use

All the love it can get

Right now.

You are a painted night sky

With Shimmering stars

For Eyes

And your alibi

Is that the sky started falling

Won't you fall down on me

I have been waiting moments

Filled with anticipation

And loveliness

For you

And your dancing moonlight touch

Kiss me tenderly

Fill my heart

Like a journal

Full of love poems

Strong emotions

Fill my heart

With the black ink

Of your promises

They say that love is dead

Will you disprove them

Will you contradict

With your gentle touch

And your tender kisses?

You beg me to believe

And in secret you kiss my wrists

Where they have been made to bleed

We are a surprise

And it all started

With you driving me home

When I already had a ride.